Break me incase of an emergency,
I hear you in my sleep, hear you in my sleep
I see us walking through a field of hope and dreams
and waking up to knowing you and I’ll never be
My heart is taking chances you would never believe
I find it hard to let you know it’s killing me
Like circles, I can find myself back where I began
Where hoping you’re alone, you’re alone like you hope I am

-Break
You speak as if you’re so sincere
-Me
Your voice is all I want to hear
-in case
Take me into your heart once more
-of an
Where I was all you’d ever need
-Emergency

Your name is like a bridge built to take me away
Your face is now an image I could never escape
So vivid I can almost taste you lips as you speak
And feel your heart upon me through the pulse it creates

-Break
You speak as if you’re so sincere
-Me
Your voice is all I want to hear
-in case
Take me into your heart once more
-of an
Where I was all you’d ever need
-Emergency

I’ll take my chances wishing you
Take time to feel the way I do
This is the state of consequence
When you’re bottled up in this

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“Your tongue is a rudder.
It steers the whole ship.
Sends your words past your lips or keeps them safe behind your teeth.
But the wrong words will strand you.
Come off course while you sleep.
Sweep your boat out to sea or dashed to bits on the reef.” -Brand New

I have chosen dreams over dreams before. But right when you start to realize that you were never really that good at the one you skipped out on, the other one starts to tell you the same thing. Everything in this life takes hard work. but that’s not all. I am starting to realize that the only way to be successful at anything is to go above and beyond what is required. But, what do you do when you have several dreams? My dreams have spread me thin. Success will not fall in your lap. This is a fact.

My biggest dreams are the ones that I have chosen. But I never really gave up on the ones left behind. I have always wanted to be on top of the world, and as a Sagittarius cliche would go, I believed I would. I did. I made it there. Not the mountain top that I was searching for, but the one I was on in 2005. I made it there. It was where I wanted to be. Only issue was that I made it there fueled off of faith and charms. Well, it seems to me that they don’t last forever. Just like anything beautiful. I ran out of charms. My faith seems to be taken away without notice. I believe, but  I worry.

I really believe that the mountain top that I can see with selfish dreams of becoming a great songwriter is mostly an illusion out of reach. It’s a big mountain to climb, and my most desirable dreams wont allow for it. I understand that. I understand that I am not going to see the top of that mountain and I don’t try. If I really was to, I would ride an avalanche down my own mountain.

What to do? I set my sights lower. On smaller mountains. Those sights seem to loosen my grip, as I find my self wondering how much longer I can hold on. If it were up to me, I would stay there forever. But, I don’t think that it is up to me. It is really up to fate. Everything happens for a reason in this life. I feel secure in that belief. It is the only thing I can trust, for I am becoming more and more numb to car crashes and broken hearts.

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So this week I have been listening to all the demos I recorded in 2009, and I have come to realize that I haven’t finished one. I’m upset with this fact. If I was to take all of the work that it took to halfway record these songs and rolled it into one project, I would have a completed product. Dammit.
So here is where I am going to challenge myself. By the end of 2009, I WILL have two EPs completed. First, the Arrive by Sky EP. Then I will put full focus on The Falling Project’s EP. I can do this…
The Arrive by Sky stuff is fantastic, and I can’t wait to hear what finesse Tim can put on it.
The Falling Project stuff is super tight, but there is a lot to be done there… I will, and can be productive, and it starts tonight.

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I decided to record my most recent song so I can hear it back. And, I like to share:) This song is called “What is this? A Center for Ants?” I am super stoked on the lyrics and the sound of it all when my friend Chad plays drums over it. It gives me that Jimmy/Clarity feel. Now I feel special:)

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One of my best friends has finally decided to once again visit Florida and see some sun, his friends, and of course start tracking our long awaited and extremely put off EP. We demoed some material a few years back and never got around to tightening them up, so fast forward and here we are. We never called it “The Falling Project” for nothing. But don’t judge that book on it’s cover, there is a lot more inside than you think. From Underoath to Richard Marx, this EP will have it’s diversity and that’s a fact. It’s going to be a busy weekend for Brett and I, but well worth it. More to follow, soon:)

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WARNING: Spoiler alert. SPOILER ALERT. So, if you have not seen Transformers 2 yet, STOP READING. If you liked the first one, then I see absolutely no reason you should not like the new one. Amazing explosions, lots of glamorous shots of beautiful girls, a little bit of American Pie humor, and of course, A LOT of robot fights. I mean, a lot.

So twice now in my life I have witnessed Optimus Prime die. I do have to say though, that the first time was a little bit more emotional, being 7 years old I was vulnerable to those moments. This made it pretty neat to see my ten year old daughter shaken up a bit when he died this time. But alas, he is brough back to life to defeat the Decepticons and all is fine and cheesy. I mean, dandy.

I REALLY enjoyed the movie. It still held that epic feeling. I am happy with it, and I look forward to another one.

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Where to start… An idol of mine, Michael Jackson, the King of Pop, has passed away. This guy made pop cool.

I feel sorry for his family. From his children to his sisters and brothers. I have always had mad respect for this guy, though everything that has plagued him in his career, and I will continue to respect this master of pop music. Of course, Pop will never be the same.

I very distinctly remember my father keeping me up past my bedtime on December 2, 1983 to watch the world premiere of the Thriller video. I know that that very experience only added to my fat-chanced dream of becoming a rockstar someday. I believe that Michael Jackson will live on forever, just as other greats such as John Lennon or Elvis Presley. I am sure that there will be a lot of MJ appreciation to follow this very sad day in history. Farewell, hero to the world of music. You are a legend. You are a king.

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Alright. So I am going to be completely out of the loop for a few days… I have sold my iPhone and ordered the 3gs, which remains on “back-order” from AT&T. I am super siked for the new phone, but at the same time I am allready having withdraws from Twitter, Chess, Texting, emailing, music, and the Internet WHENEVER I wanted it… This is going to suck, but maybe I need this? A break might do me good So, to my friends… You can still call me, and I have my email. I have a back up… Just no texting

Wow, this is going to suck. I think that I am addicted to the damn iPhone… WTF. This is my uncanny realization.

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So the new project that I am working on will be called “A Secret to Start”. I am truly excited about the formula for this band. I will be producing 50% of the songs, and my friend will do the other half.  My first song is called “What is this? A center for ants?”. The song has a HUGE “Clarity” feel to it, and the lyrics are probably my favorite thing I have written in a very long time. I’m so excited.  I just can’t hide it. I’m about to lose control and I think I like it.

My buddy Chad is helping me with this project, as well as writing his own songs too. It will be very interesting to see how this turns out.

I plan to have the three song Arrive by Sky EP finished soon as well. It came out pretty good and vocals are coming along nice. Sooooooooooo…… Cheers! Let’s do this thing. (While I am both motivated and inspired)

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I am really excited for the new blink182 material. I really enjoy anything that they have done. (+44) was amazing, and mix it with Box Car Racer you have probably the best album that they will ever put out. In this interview, Travis points out that it just might turn out that way. I love these guys…

I can’t bring myself to by a ticket for their summer tour, though. I have a huge problem with “Arena Bands”. Even the main stage at the Warped Tour is a miss for me. I am all about the small venues. Now, I understand that blink will never play these types of shows again, but House of Blues is probably the biggest venue that I will pay for. I’m not a snob, just not interested in the echo, huge crowd, crappy sound, and probably not even being able to see them play their instruments. (Isn’t that why we go?) But all in all, I can’t help but feel like I’m going to be missing out on something…

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